Last night I had another dream about being abandoned by the same person I have dreamed about being abandoned by for the past year and a half. This is the only person I can recall having abandonment dreams about. We were at a party and most of what I can remember is from me watching … Continue reading Recurring Abandonment Dreams
I haven't had sex since December 2016, so seven months. I'm currently tied for the longest break I have taken from it in the 11 years that I've been sexually active. Both times that I stopped have been because of a feeling. I started because of a thought and I didn't understand what I was … Continue reading Nonrecreational Sex
We began our languorous journey into uncharted territory five years ago, at the age of 24. There is something very special about that age... I believe it to be the beginning of one's spiritual awakening. It's when I first started to feel the separation of mind, body and spirit. It terrified me. Some interpret this … Continue reading Those Who Cannot Teach, Do
Each person is weird or unique or special or another word that means the same things as these words, but am I actually weird? The kind of weird that doesn't easily and consistently socialize? The kind of weird that doesn't pick up on subtle human gestures of intent? The kind that sometimes obliviously misjudges the … Continue reading Am I The Weird One?
Taking it easy in the ways of love. Letting each other be and be themselves and go where they want and with who they want, even when it's not with you. Especially when it's not with you. Trying to be friends and realizing even that is a two-way street. Filtering out the real from the … Continue reading Putting Regret To Use
I like the feeling of caring about someone I'm interested in romantically or, probably more truly, I like the idea of liking the feeling of caring about a romantic interest. I like the idea of liking the feeling of caring for a romantic interest too. I like to care about other people from afar, to imagine … Continue reading Feeling Romantic
What a tizzy we have thrown ourselves into on the concept of death -- and when I say concept, I mean concept. I believe that when you and I expire from our Earthly forms and our souls are working out where to go next on the universe's eternal journey to know itself through every experience imaginable and … Continue reading To Conquer Death, You Only Have To Die