The Nature/Nurture Blur

We could all sit around and blame every single bad thing in our lives on parents… just like we could blame every single bad thing in our lives on anything. ¬†Parents are an easy scapegoat. ¬†We are all little versions of our parents after all, sometimes acting as avatars playing the part that mom or…

Speaking Softly And Slowing Down

I once had a co-worker who told me that my first instinct in any situation was to panic. I didn’t know what he meant–it was such a natural reaction that I could not see that I was the only person around me acting in such a manner. I was a bossy kid and that bled…

On God and Woman

I find the term feminism to be counterintuitive… I am equal beyond my gender because my gender is irrelevant. Your car is not better than my truck, your house is not better than my apartment, your male body is not better than my female body–they are different things. They are just things. They are not…

I Don’t Want To Shave My Legs

I came to Southern Illinois from Southern California just as I was. I have had a rough few years–this year especially–and was glad to feel like I was crossing the finish line triumphantly as my mother told me that she was really proud of me and ecstatic about my current being, in so many words……

Home Free Day 4

Writing from the second floor of a bookstore in a mall in… Glendale maybe? I don’t know, I have been drifting around a bit today. I planned on being out of my apartment July 15, going home to Illinois on July 17 and probably staying at a friend’s place for the days in between. Instead,…

Something To Talk About

The more I talk to other people, the dumber and less necessary what I say becomes. It is a snowball effect. I start with an attempt to talk to other people. I learn that it is easy to speak negatively. I speak negatively. There is always something negative to talk about and it is so…

Those Who Cannot Teach, Do

We began our languorous journey into uncharted territory five years ago, at the age of 24. There is something very special about that age… I believe it to be the beginning of one’s spiritual awakening. It’s when I first started to feel the separation of mind, body and spirit. It terrified me. Some interpret this…